Journal entry #17: Fluctuating morals

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Journal entry #17: Fluctuating morals

I know I"ve totally forsaken this blog. Three months and no entries.

It is easy to write when you are single and searching for guys, and therefore 1) slightly miserable and bitchy; 2) full of fresh memories of the losers that crossed your path and whom you want to make fun of publicly. It is (perhaps surprisingly) more difficult to write when you are in a relationship and very happy: 1) happy to the extent that it is actually hard to spill literary poison over the keyboard; 2) stuff that is happening in your life may simply be way too personal and special to share it with the others. No offence.

This entry is dedicated to Michael who picked me up from the depths of my Facebook addiction and urged to write.

So here"s a story of a guy whom I know personally.

Let"s call this guy Jack Wills. Jack was blessed by heavens with very good looks. I mean... very good looks. He is an Apollo. He is a hedonistic Apollo because the son of a bitch knows how attractive he is. He also seems to have a strange power over guys. They go gaga for him. He ruined one guy completely: after being dumped, that guy is depressed for already two years and in tears every other night.

Ok. Back to our guy. Last summer Jack had a kick-ass economics internship in this small retarded country in Africa. No jokes. There he met this beautiful (white) guy who lives there. That guy is from a wealthy family, he owns a company, he has a legion of sla... ahum.. sorry, labourers who clean his swimming pool. He is gay (why else would I write about him?).

Jack "had a thing with him" (his words). They spent a summer together, and then my friend Jack came back to Europe. They have been calling each other every day since then, confessing of their special feelings for each other. For Christmas and Easter, my friend went to that African country again to see his guy. It cost him a fortune, hence we can conclude that he genuinely is interested in his African dream guy and is very much in love. He says he is in love.

Officially, they are "committed to each other" but "not in a formal relationship". The guy from Africa did not have sex with anyone but Jack Wills this year. He really is in love and is very committed.

Jack... here where the story really starts.

Jack came back from Africa yesterday. He spent two perfect weeks with his dream guy. Upon his return to Europe, he received a call from some random guy he once met on a gay portal. That stranger offered to pick Jack at the airport and drop him off wherever. Jack said "Sure". He made the guy drive him for 3 hours to his small town. No jokes. Then he let this guy suck him off. In the car.

Then... Jack went to my room and told me what happened. By no means was there a shade of remorse on his pretty face, burnt by the African sun.

Then (!), that same day (the day when he kissed his dream guy goodbye at the African airport), he went to a random bar, got drunk, pulled some random guy, went to his place and had sex with him.

Then... he went to my room and shared the tale of his adventures. No remorse whatsoever. In fact, he said "I think I"ve done a terrible thing" and he was smiling. He also said that he found it incredible that he could do something like this. (You figure out what it means.)

Jack insists that he is committed to his dream guy in Africa and says that he would never cheat on him if they were in a relationship and "lived together". He adds this because he would obviously cheat if they had a long-distance relationship. I mean, seriously, can we expect Jack"s dick to maintain celibacy for longer than... a flight"s time?

For two hours today I have been extracting, trying to awaken remorse in his slutty head. Nothing! It is simply not there. He doesn"t have this set of morals that I assumed was natural for a homo sapiens. I am actually quite astonished by this. He is emotionally handicapped. He does not actually understand it is wrong. He knows that people consider it wrong. He doesn"t feel or understand that it is wrong though.

I love my Jack. I love him as a good friend. However, I do think that he is deeply immoral. Oi vei! What can one do with Jack Wills?

12 April 2010

Publicēja: lawrence
Datums: 13.04.2010. - 00:24:30
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lawrence | 29.07.2010. - 10:54:49
Jack Wills is currently in Africa.

He broke up with his dream guy. He also managed to sway all the friends of his dream guy AND his parents to his side. In fact, he stays at his ex-dream guy’s parents’ house.

Ex-dream guy is heart-broken and also marginalised.

Never sleep with Jack Wills.

fairywoman | 17.04.2010. - 22:59:33
His life, his problems. Just keep his personality in mind when dealing with him ^^

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